know whats weird? day by day nth seems to change but slowly everything seems different

Sunday, May 20, 2007

` 1:37 AM

walk down this neverending road with me.... will you?

feeling the breeze on a windy afternoon.

maybe its time to pick up the pieces and chuck it away into some hidden places where i could not find it.maybe its time to let go of all the memories and start moving on with life and treasure whats around me. a yr and a half has passed yet that day was still fresh in my mind. i will nv forget that particular day. the tone of your voice over the phone. the look in your teary eyes that still engraved in my mind.

we have been through so much. the time that we spent together will always stay with me. i wont say anything bad bout it .im happy that your settlig well and enjoying your life nw. i guess this is the umpteen time i have said it but i really meant it.there are some feelings in me now that are best left unsaid for no words can aptly describe it right now.

the future we do not know. the road so uncertain. we could have walk together yet we chose to part ways.you have since learn to deal with it. though i have someone dear beside me. i have yet fully pick myself up. and its only a recent realisation for i think i have been running away from it long ago.

after so long. my heart still wretched a little when ever i talk or think of you... i must stop thinking of you and i must start to write other stuffs in my blog from now on. i must put you behind me. i must learn to live on and care bout the people around me. i must...

Thursday, May 17, 2007

` 8:00 PM

忘
我没有很努力要自己去遗忘
那些和日记一起收藏的过往
孤单在思绪之中变得很漫长

想
我没有很刻意让自己不去想
那些和照片静止的模样
我学着坚强坚强到不用学着不想学着遗忘
还是害怕夜深人静时总想起你
还是害怕的不经意听见你的消息
然而当爱已经沉淀得太清晰
当拥有已经是失去就勇敢的放弃
还是害怕一个人时就很难忘记
还是害怕突然宁愿当初没有决定
然而当爱最后的出口是分离
我会这么相信走下去

害怕

what if all along you have been keeping something that is very special to you inside your heart. something that a special person had given you.you sheltered it frm anything that might harm it. you thought its the most special thing in the whole wide world. and one fine day you look at the people all around you.especially the very person that gave you that thing. the very person has moved on and carried on with life. the person doesnt seem to remember anything bout the thing. you take a look at the thing in your heart and suddenly you questioned yourself if its worth the attention after all. is it worth the attention that makes you forget to look at the world around you cos your too engrossed in sheltering the thing. u suddenly feel that you have lagged behind. a feeling i cant really describe except to feel it so real.

i cant let it all go....

i read the blogs of others and they talked bout other serious stuffs yet most of my entries are stupid and meaningless...

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

` 10:49 AM

Let it all out
Get it all out
Rip it out
Remove it
Don't be alarmed
When the wound begins to bleed

Cause we're so scared to find out
What this life's all about
So scared we're going to lose it
Not knowing all along
That's exactly what we need

And today I will trust you with confidence
Of a man who's never known defeat
But tomorrow, upon hearing what I did
I will stare at you in disbelief
Oh inconsistent me
Crying out for consistency

And you said I know that this will hurt
But if I don't break your heart
Then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember the end will justify
The pain it took to get us there

And I know you know
You touched my life
When you touched my heavy heart
And made it light

relient k-let it all out

" one problem with gazing too frequently into the past is that we may turn around to find the future has run out on us."

true.

Sunday, May 13, 2007

` 2:22 PM